Goals for myself

^ This happened awhile back and it made me giggle.

But it also kind of got me thinking... about how I used to push myself in high school.

In college I had to do some readjusting as I realized I wasn't always capable of making the highest grade... but I always worked hard!

My husband translates 2-10 bible verses every morning in Hebrew, Greek and Latin. EACH. (so 30 verses some days.) Then he does an hour of German study. Then he starts preparing for his Sunday School lessons in the Pentateuch (Deuteronomy now) and then on to whatever he's preaching/teaching next. He has got to be the most overcommitted graduate ever. (I think he works harder now than he did when he was in school!)

I on the other hand, take the easy road. I work hard at work, so when I come home... I cook dinner (if I feel like it), let him do the dishes, and then watch tv or play a video game. It kind of makes me wonder what I could accomplish with a little effort. 24 hours in a day. Sure, I sleep 8 of them, work 8 of them and drive 1 of them. And a girl needs a break - but what am I doing for 7 hours a day? Surely I could spend 1 of them learning something.

Independent Woman? Ha!

I've been having to be more independent this past week because of Jacob's job. Can I just say, that is really HARD?! I realized how much I count on Jacob. To help with dishes, to help with grilling, to run the deep fryer, to calm me down when I'm upset, to give me motivation...

I will never regret my life, or my decision to marry young, but this past week I had a big revelation of what I traded to have this beautiful thing that I have now.

My sister graduated from undergrad this week, and I thought back to my own graduation. I realized that I was so focused on starting a new job, moving, and most importantly marrying that handsome hunk of a husband, that I think I forgot to slow down and appreciate graduation. It's almost like I skipped it.

I told my mom that, and she said everything in life is a trade off. No matter what you choose you'll give something else up. I started thinking about that....

If we choose to move to somewhere exciting, I'll give up time with people I love here. If I choose to stay here, I might miss some amazing learning and growing times and really fun adventures somewhere else. If we pick Jacob's career, we might have to let mine suffer; and if we focus on my career, we'll take focus from his. If we choose to grow more variety in our garden this year, we give up the abundance of tomatoes. If I spend my devotion time in the old testament, then I'm not reading the new testament right now. And if I chose to get married young, I might have missed some really valuable growing time as an independent gal. But then, I would have given up some of the adventures that Jake and I have had these last 2 years.

I think the point isn't so much that there's a better or worse way to do things, just that I should realize that there's good and bad to everything, and try to appreciate the good in where I am right now.

Even if that's sitting in my kitchen feeling a little sorry for myself cause I miss my husband. :) At least I figured out how to fix our dang sink sprayer! And that's a pretty important lesson to learn.